Today is my birthday. Well, not my real birthday, but this is the day I'm beginning a fresh new life with God. Oh, don't get me wrong, I've believed in God since I can remember, but for the past few months, I've been in sort of a "spiritual rut"... I've been asking myself a lot of questions and have just felt like I wasn't being the person that I should be.
That changes now.
For the past year and a half, I've gotten a "daily devotional for women" email. Needless to say, since my spiritual rut started, I haven't always felt like reading it, but I'm stubborn and kept at it, hoping (and praying) that something would pop up (or hit me in the head like a ton of bricks if it needed to). I usually don't scroll past the verse(s) and editor's explanation, but this morning, Someone was telling me to... so I did. It was there that I saw a link to a downloadable guide about being in (and getting out of) a spiritual rut. I clicked on it and read through the overview and topics included thinking, "Wow, that's what I need... WOW, that's exactly what I've been praying for... WOW, I HAVE TO GET THIS!!!" So, I whipped out the plastic and spent $5.95 on the PDF copy. The instant I got it, I started reading through it. I could relate to so many of the testimonies from other women (and a few men) who told about how they just didn't feel the "chemistry" for God's Word anymore, but explained how God got them out of their own ruts. One man suggested a 90-day program for Bible study (it takes 21 days to learn a habit, and another 21 to set it, but he challenged himself to go 90... that was years ago and he's still going strong). A woman suggested a journal of God's blessings in her own life. I've been an avid journal-writer in the past, but sometimes life happens--okay, life ALWAYS happens--and my journal got put on the back burner, so to speak. After reading that, I though, "Hm, I should start up a journal again," but when I kept reading, I got to another testimony about another woman who started her own devotional/prayer/praise blog online. That's when the bricks hit me: write a blog. My laptop is almost always with me, and I figured, if my "journal" is online, then I can't give the excuse, "Oh, but I left my journal at home," or "Darn, my pen doesn't work," or "Oh, but I'm working on a project on the computer and I can't type and write at the same time." I've had a blog in the past for poetry and monologues (although I haven't posted anything on it in probably a year), so it should be a breeze to start up... I just pray to God that He can bless me with words to write--uh, type--every day! That's my goal: one entry (minimum) every day praising God. I talk to him every day anyway... why not add a different method of talking to Him to spice things up a bit? Besides, when a feeling as strong as this one comes to me, I know that it's God who put it there and that I just have to follow it; God is persistent and He WILL keep putting a thought in my head (and heart) until I follow it. And those are the things that usually turn out the best.
Okay, let's get this show on the rut-free road. I'm going to start out with one of my favorite verses:
Unto thee, O LORD, do I lift up my soul.
~Psalm 25:1 (KJV)
And that's the plan. Every day, regardless of my mood or what's going on in my life, I'm going to lift my soul to God in both traditional prayer and through this blog. He reaches out to me every day--every nanosecond--why shouldn't I reach back?
Please, God, if it's in Your will, let me stick to this plan... this new path to you. Amen.
Love and God Bless,
M.C.
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